not the best week. a ton of tension making me feel like my shoulder has been yanked around and there's a snake constricting itself around my right arm. good thing that happened today: got up and took a shower right away, so didn't have to rush to get to work.

don't know what I'm going to tell Dr. G tomorrow. last week he was so enthusiastic about my progress and now I feel like I don't have much to show for it. it's the homework thing is what it is. I had a plan that I thought was manageable, small steps, and yet I haven't managed to do much of it. sometimes I think school is like a really bad boyfriend that's always making me feel bad about myself and trying to change me. I wouldn't let a person do this to me so why do I willingly take it on? maybe this time I'll be better.

just want to curl up tight in my own personal blanket fort and read every book on my shelf. spindle's end and jacob have i loved and ash and leviathan and shiver and the tea rose and prodigal summer. I need days that don't present so many opportunities to feel like a failure.